why can t i forgive myself? HDR

-=[ By the light of golden treasure]=-

Were i the one causing pain?
With my careless dreaming?
Been afraid
Always afraid
Of the things i 'm feeling

How can I be lost,
If I've got nowhere to go?
Search for seas of gold
How come it's got so cold?
In remembrance I relive
And how can I blame you
When it's me I can't forgive?

Forgive me
Forgive me not

Why can't I forgive me?